These past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me. I’m not yet ready to go into the reasons, but I do have some pretty great news.
I got my grades for this semester, and I have a 4.0!
Granted, I only went part-time, but that was still a pleasant surprise. I hadn’t been in school for over 10 years, after all. Now, I only have two more semesters left until I can get my associates in creative writing, if all goes according to plan. I just need to meet a few more requirements for the degree.
This is a personal accomplishment, but it’s also a good example of how far a person can come with enough work and determination. I was one of those kids who consistently failed tests, and did a great job of being at the bottom of the class. Growing up, I don’t recall feeling a whole lot of hope for my future, simply because I didn’t think I had one. It took many years until I felt safe in investing in myself.
I am worthy of a good life, and I always have been. I just couldn’t see it.
For those kiddos, and adults, who are in the hopeless position I once was, there is still hope. My neurodivergence has added some extra challenges, but with it came advantages I didn’t discover until much later.
One of the most important lessons I’ve learned is that nothing is ever permanent. What’s happening right now will change in some shape or form in the natural course of life. We may not be able to control the direction of all things, but we have a lot more power than we give ourselves credit for.
That philosophy has served me well, and continues to do so, but I encourage each of you to find your own truths.
This time of year is tough for many people. I know I have difficulty with depression over the holidays, regardless of how well they go, but I take strength in knowing I am loved, and that I am able to love others.
So, with that in mind, I wish you all happy holidays. May you all find something wonderful to enjoy this winter.